What is your current state of mind?
It fluctuates. In the AM, it is apprehensive and conspires against me like wild horses jumping a fence, as if it wants to track the rattle of the virus. You might say the mind wakes up like Hansel and Gretel abandoned in the woods, or Telemachus despondently walking the beach, waiting for Mentor and Athena to show up. Later, as I rein in the wild pack, check in with myself, do the dishes, take the garbage out, or pluck a string, the mind becomes calmer and quieter with occasional returns to the AM shivers. By sunset, the mind has given up trying to rattle me and joins me in enjoying that time of day a sundial has no data for. A candle helps. Luckily, all the stories which involve a descent to Hades show that there is gold to be had down there in the ashes. It’s a good time to read fairy tales and mythology, really the only maps I have to walk through this communal katabasis.
How are you planning ahead?
The cupboards are full of rice and beans, and should last for at least a month. The cash flow is uninterrupted short term (teacher contracts to be honored through the year unless the state runs out of cash), so that helps. Other than that, it is day to day. After this week, I will start preparing for the eventual return to the classroom. Good news today from China: no new cases to report domestically, so that bodes well for us all and so I’ll prepare for a return to work and other routines.
How has your perspective changed over the last few weeks?
Community, family, and faith/practice are the only things that last, I believe. So these three Jewels seem very brilliant at this time.
What is your most pressing concern?
The concerns I have are not very interesting or pressing. They seem like luxuries to me compared to what others are going through. I am hoping my car will run a while longer after an expensive trip to the local shop. As long as family and friends are well, all is well.
What are you hopeful about?
Well,l hope that we all come out of this better people, more compassionate, willing to support social change for the worker and those on the margins of our world, who carry the burden in feast and in famine.